Decathexis
“And, grant Thou to me, Father beloved,
from whom each thing that is, freely flows,
that no tie over-strict, no tie over-dear
may be between myself and this world below.”
Here’s another prayer I’ve been saying each morning – this one is from the Eastern Orthodox Prayer of St. Ephraim:
“Yea, O Lord and King, grant me to see mine own faults and not to judge my brothers and sisters, for blessed art Thou unto ages of ages. Amen.”
You might say that’s the trouble with prayer. If you read it, say it, intentionally, God will take you seriously.
On the other hand it is, thanks be to God, the promise of prayer.
“And, grant Thou to me, Father beloved,
from whom each thing that is, freely flows,
that no tie over-strict, no tie over-dear
may be between myself and this world below.”
Here’s another prayer I’ve been saying each morning – this one is from the Eastern Orthodox Prayer of St. Ephraim:
“Yea, O Lord and King, grant me to see mine own faults and not to judge my brothers and sisters, for blessed art Thou unto ages of ages. Amen.”
You might say that’s the trouble with prayer. If you read it, say it, intentionally, God will take you seriously.
On the other hand it is, thanks be to God, the promise of prayer.
And Jesus said to them … “Ask, and it will be given you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.” Luke 11.
Smudges
"You can remove the smudge from your face now," her mother said. Her mother always said the same thing and she always replied, "In a little while," which they both knew meant that she would not remove it before bedtime.
The priest, pressing a thumbload of ashes against her forehead, had solemnly intoled, "Remember that you are dust and to dust you shall return," and she was determined to show off her dustiness to as much of the world as a child might encounter on a wintry Ash Wednesday.
All too soon she grew up and learned that her dustiness (her human-ness) was not a badge of honour but a condition to be overcome or at least denied. She got her act together and forgot, for a while, that she is dust. Until it seemed that she might never be able to wash away the smudges of living.
Once again she knelt and heard the worlds, "You are dust." It was good news. It was, in fact, a great relief to know that human is all that she was ever meant to be. Not 'simply' human of course and certainly not 'merely' human. Like every other man, woman and child alive she was always meant to be 'fully' human: formed of the earth, inspired by the breath of God.
Her stress level fairly plummeted. Imagine loking into the mirror and accepting the reality of a smudge or two! Imagine looking at others and having the grace to not judge their smudges.
From Grampa Told Me a collection of writings by Esther North
"You can remove the smudge from your face now," her mother said. Her mother always said the same thing and she always replied, "In a little while," which they both knew meant that she would not remove it before bedtime.
The priest, pressing a thumbload of ashes against her forehead, had solemnly intoled, "Remember that you are dust and to dust you shall return," and she was determined to show off her dustiness to as much of the world as a child might encounter on a wintry Ash Wednesday.
All too soon she grew up and learned that her dustiness (her human-ness) was not a badge of honour but a condition to be overcome or at least denied. She got her act together and forgot, for a while, that she is dust. Until it seemed that she might never be able to wash away the smudges of living.
Once again she knelt and heard the worlds, "You are dust." It was good news. It was, in fact, a great relief to know that human is all that she was ever meant to be. Not 'simply' human of course and certainly not 'merely' human. Like every other man, woman and child alive she was always meant to be 'fully' human: formed of the earth, inspired by the breath of God.
Her stress level fairly plummeted. Imagine loking into the mirror and accepting the reality of a smudge or two! Imagine looking at others and having the grace to not judge their smudges.
From Grampa Told Me a collection of writings by Esther North
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Smudges
Who do you say that I am? Parable of Wheat & Tares
Stir Up Sunday Goin' Home. Remembrance Day I will draw all to myself St. Francis of Assisi Snow on Snow
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I don't know who took this picture. I'd like to give them credit. It arrived in this morning's email from my sister.
Just in time for Palm Sunday. A reminder of Al and the parish tradition that started 19 years ago.
I moved to the Coast in the Autumn of 1989. My first parish. Visions of myself as The Country Vicar. Like many small communities, Gibsons had time and space for 'Characters'. Helen, who lives on The Bluff and spends her days picking up litter left behind by the more indolent among us, is still a presence. Al disappeared. No one knows. Very few know Al's role in the Palm Sunday tradition.
Al lived somewhere back of beyond in the forested hills above Roberts Creek from whence he would walk down the highway to Gibsons to spend most of his days outside the groceteria/coffee shop in the company of like-minded men and his saddle-packed dog. We didn't see much of Al over the winter. Early in Springtime, when patches of Snowdrops and Crocus were brightening the evergreen landscape, he reappeared.
'There's Al,' I said to Barbara. 'Looks like he's adopted a second dog.' As we drove past him we saw that it wasn't a dog. It was a little grey donkey colt. Who isn't a pushover for puppies, kittens and colts!?
'We need that little colt for the Palm Sunday procession,' I said and Barbara, Parish Warden and self-appointed Go-pher, went off to extend the invitation. Al said yes. It was settled. Plans for the liturgical procession around the churchyard - one of the busiest corners in Gibsons when the ferry arrives - underway.
Alone in the church office some weeks later, I looked up at the sound of knocking to see the unkempt Al waiting outside the locked door. I admit that I hesitated before opening the locked door and inviting him in.
Al reported that the 'authorities' had found him unfit to own a donkey colt and had seized the animal.
'I've come to assure you though that Curly will be here on Palm Sunday,' said Al. 'I wouldn't let them take him until they promised to keep his appointment.'
I thanked him, somewhat surprised by his integrity and determination. He surprised me further by saying that whilst he knew about the donkey carrying Mary at Christmastime, he didn't know anything about Palm Sunday. Would I mind telling him? I invited Al and the saddle-packed dog into my office. We spent the next hour drinking coffee, eating Sunday's left-over cookies and talking about the church's beliefs and traditions.
He never said so, but you could tell by his manner and vocabulary, his knowledge and curiosity, that Al was an educated man. One of the many who had 'dropped out'. A draft-dodger perhaps. Living in an abandoned cabin probably. He never came to the church again. He would nod and move on without a word when we met on the street - never to presume.
Al's unshaven face, unwashed body and ragged vesture camouflaged an honourable man. Many lesser men and women sit camouflaged in high places.
Lord, help me to see my brothers and sisters as you see them. Amen.
